I’m Finally a Man

Well it finally happened.  I penetrated a guy up the butt, and it was a very beautiful experience.  Part of me is glad I waited, however it was also LONG overdue.  I have known my friend and, more recently, lover Arnold (not his real name) for a while, perhaps five or more years now.  Thanks to him, I am no longer a top virgin.  Afterward, I asked him if he had ever been fucked before and he said no!  I could hardly believe it; we were both each other’s first:  I was his first top and he was my first ass in the same sumptuous fuck.  I never thought this particular friend would make a man out of me, but here we are.  That’s the thing about life.  It will surprise you in ways you could not imagine ahead of time.  That’s why one has to relax and give oneself and others a chance.

But first, some back story.  I am a bit of a late bloomer.  I had successfully taken a guy up my butt several times and given oral sex.  More recently, I figured out how to cum in a guy’s mouth.  I had never been able to cum from oral sex before, so there was a learning curve there.  When it finally happened I was relieved.  I felt terribly worried that there was something wrong with me!  I could easily get erect by myself, and my spontaneous morning erections were very stiff.  But with another guy, I just couldn’t get it up.  Ultimately I figured out that it was because I kept getting distracted by the new feelings and activities involved in sex.  I figured out that sex is a skill you have to LEARN, just like anything else.  And practicing, with a guy who cares enough about you to be patient, is key.

We had to try no less than than three completely different positions before I was able to get excited and fully erect–that’s just how new it was for me.  It doesn’t happen instantly.  Real life is not an expertly edited porno.  My dick was only at forty percent when I went in for the first time, but instead of worrying and losing it completely, I reassured myself that we had all the time in the world to figure it out.  That’s when some very mysterious and wonderful miracles started to happen.

First he lay on his side to get warmed up and stretched out a little bit with a nice dildo he brought.  Arnold does not happen to be a hairy guy, so it was easy to slick up his anus and rectum.  So after doing that for a while, I asked him if he was ready.  He said yes and I moved on in.  I tried putting it in with him on his back, and also rear entry with him on his side again, to no avail.  But it was still fun to try.

We both kind of came up with the idea of putting him on all fours on the couch, and me more or less standing up.  And it worked!  I let myself off the hook completely about responding and performing, and within a few seconds my dick became fully erect.  I got distracted a couple more times and went slightly soft, but basically I knew this was it.  I fucked him for perhaps ten or fifteen minutes when I started to sense I was getting close.  This first climax was wonderful, but my dick didn’t want me to pull out.  I could hardly believe it, but I went with it.  I knew there was more cumming in store, and I kept fucking for several more minutes.  And then the big one finally came.  I was compelled to step up on the couch to mount him more properly; I had successfully allowed my body to take over instead of my mind.  It was very interesting:  my dick wanted me to go deeper and pull out simultaneously.  I finally settled on medium depth and finished my full-body orgasmic experience.  I have never had a double ejaculation like that before, and I am looking forward to doing that again, to say the least.

This beautiful experience is the end result of many years of relationship with a friend, a friendship that has not always been perfect.  We’ve been through disagreements and misunderstandings.  But, most important of all, we gave each other the time and space to clear them up and agree to disagree so that we could become even better friends.  Good sex is not the result of naïve notions of romance, marriage, and chastity.  It is the natural outcome of the hard work of consistently building trust and cultivating compatibility with the advent of mature, manly communication.  Just because most guys don’t know how to do this does not preclude the abiding presence of this fact in human relations.  We worked on being friends over the course of many years, and now we have the privilege of reaping the rewards.  {>^<V}

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